I challenged myself...
to just lay here.
To just close my eyes,
numb my feelings
drown out the noise raping my ears
A tedious task
since dogs were vocally marking territory,
crickets chirping Beethoven's symphony,
the fan whirring mechanically
I can even hear my heart beating
Ever so often,
almost frightened, it would leap
as roaring engines, blaring horns and radios
announce cars racing down the street
as if the sound of wet tyres
splashing what remains
of the sporadic rain wasn't enough
That's when it hit me
like water to the face
of someone sleeping or in a gaze
This...
this is what my mind goes through daily
All the chaos that goes on outside
engineers a Daedalus-like maze within
and even I cant escape
Trapped on the highland
in the middle of a thoroughfare
of thoughts, voices...
decisions to be made.
Mistakes reincarnated,
haunting my present.
This...
this is why I need to be still.
close my eyes
Relax
clear my mind
focus on nothing
...do nothing
Just
Be
Still
January 3. Kavon McKenzie Copyright 2012
